It’s 11:53pm and everything is done
As per the norm it’s been a relatively stressful few hours
This year she didn’t feel 100% so she’s in bed around 8
When I finally dragged him upstairs just after 10ish I found that she wasn’t fully asleep
She’s laying in my bed
He might have finally fallen asleep at 10:40 but wouldn’t even consider laying in bed unless I was there with him
It was hard for me not to fall asleep
This year Grandma wanted to go to be with the other grand kids Christmas morning but he insisted that she be here instead
It took some convincing but eventually she decided to be with us
Thankfully she’s here, for numerous reasons
Had I fallen asleep I’m not sure what she would have done
She’s now attempting to fall asleep in one of our recliners
It’s 45 degrees here right now
The kind of in between weather where a little indoor heat is necessary but your furnace keeps on running so everyone is a bit too warm
Fans are running, a window or two is cracked, but then it gets too cold … and so the furnace starts up again
Tonight I was in shorts grabbing things from the garage
Just this past Halloween it was snowing … crazy
I really like this holiday but struggle with it as well
I don’t dwell too much on what we are missing
Not that I don’t miss her just as much as every other year, I do, SHE should be here with US!
I just try to do enough that these two enjoy and appreciate all that we do have
Each year just presents different challenges
As they get older they’re more emotional, more aware
It’s sort of hard to keep up with them in that sense
When they were younger things were a bit simpler
I digress …
It’s now Christmas Day 🙂