As I stood in line waiting to pick up my chinese food last night, I probably wanted to find a related article when I opened up the local suburban life paper sitting on the table. Maybe something more powerful than me brought me to this location on this particular day.
It’s been nearly 6 MONTHS. I’m up and down all the time; started the week okay but it didn’t last. Therapy yesterday did it’s usual damage of opening up wounds I’ve attempted to conceal.
So there I am, the last one left at Moy Goy. It’s decent chinese, not the best in chicagoland, but the best I have found in the immediate area. The suburban life paper sitting on the table in the corner. This isn’t the first time I’ve scanned the paper in this very restaurant having run across a related article. But 6 months out I wouldn’t suspect finding a story that mentions her name and mentions my kids as well.
http://www.mysuburbanlife.com/lagrange/news/x933815261/Village-revamps-intersection-code
I just wanted to scream. Instead a few tears rolled down my cheek. I did my best to hold it back. The therapy session earlier in the day had already got me going. Why was there an article on this particular day? Why did I decide to open up the paper? I didn’t really need another reminder.
I also think I dreamed of it last night. I’m actually pretty sure I did. I just can’t remember the specifics this morning. So today is probably going to be a long one.