The word keeps running through my head.
That’s what I feel like. Cheated!
Cheated out of how things should have been. Cheated out of my best friend, my love. But the kids especially. Cheated out of having the one person in their life they needed so much.
And then today E said something. I wish I could remember her exact words. It’s like maybe she does know that Mommy isn’t coming back. What she said made it feel like she does.
Poor girl. Isn’t feeling well either.
And then I received this. I knew it would make me emotional.
I can’t wait … well I keep saying for these days/weeks to be over, true, but … well I don’t know what I want to say.