He put two fingers in his nose yesterday, one in each nostril. Nice!!! He’s 100% boy. The two of them are complete opposites.
She’s been emotional lately. We had a long weekend. Water Park on Friday, Cubs game and birthday party on Saturday, another birthday party Sunday and then GC took them to the Morton Arboretum today. They’ve been busy. Tomorrow is Teddy Bear Camp for E. It wouldn’t be so bad but the humidity here is ridiculous. We might as well be living in Florida.
She is so freaking cute. She says, “I love you so much Daddy.” She wants me to sleep in her bed with her (it’s nearly impossible to leave after reading her a book but somehow I make my way back downstairs). It’s impossible to explain this in words.
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I’m seriously struggling with the idea of dating. The thought has been there for a while. I could certainly approach it as meeting some new people and that’s probably what I will do. Still, I have this thing whole situation on my mind, all the time, and I have no idea how it will ever go away.
It would be one thing if we weren’t madly in love with each other, but we were.
It seems impossible for me to ever get to that point again with someone else. Not that I’m eager for that, but I think about it. It would be a whole lot of effort that I am probably incapable of .
And then I think about divorcee’s and how their situation differs (in my mind). They, most likely, put a lot of energy into disliking the other person or at least being put into a situation where there was an agreeable split. I will never have that. So somehow I guess I have to create and/or accept some concept of a separation. Those are my thoughts anyways.
So, I just needed to get some of that out. This post is far from complete but I’m exhausted. I went running (jogging) tonight for the first time since my surgery and I’m feeling it. I doubt I’ll be able to go to bed but I should at least give it a try.