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Dimes & Butterflies

We have some amazing friends.  We always knew that.  We were pretty fortunate. 

I think I know the secret.  And it’s not all to different from why Cari and I were so awesome together.  It’s because we could all make each other laugh and didn’t care about the petty bull shit.

So, one of my friends sent me this e-mail and I wanted to post it here.  Hope she doesn’t mind…


So I wanted to tell you this yesterday but didn’t know if would bring ya down at all or not.  I mean its a good thing, but just, well you know….

Well first of all twice in the last week and actually right around the time I was telling a story about Cari, (sorry the one about being in the hotel room is pretty classic).  I got SPAMed by her old e-mail.  I mean I know it’s been happening with yahoo, but just kinda weird to see… And kind weird during time I was talking about her.  Though in some way, I really liked seeing it!  (I mean I miss getting e-mail and hearing from receptionist “It’s Cari on the phone”.)  But in a way, maybe she was sorta trying to talk to me…. I don’t know!

Secondly, I remember you saying to E when I gave her a dime…. That it means mommy is thinking about her.  Matt, I heard a story a few years ago (before everything happened with Cari) from this women sitting at sandwich shop.  She basically told me how her aunt had told her same thing.  And that since her aunt has told her that, she’s found dime every morning.  After we finished our conversation, I told her every time I find one, i’d think of her and her mom.  Well, shortly after I went tanning and there was one sitting in middle of the room.  Matt, I find them like crazy for the last two years.  I’ve found them on my car seat…. (when I don’t keep change in my pocket oranything).  And even on seat of a rent-a-car when I get in…. When you know those things are cleaned.  And other strange places in my home, work, hotel rooms etc.  Well yesterday sitting at the game…. I moved my foot a tad and looked down and there was a dime by my toe.  I know finding dime happens and this may all sound silly….  But in a way to me they have become comforting.  Lord knows we all have ‘stuff’, right?!  It actually happened a few minutes after you made comment about the butterfly too.  So just that whole time (and that is why sent you text too).  I really really felt like Cari was at the game with us.

Anyway, this is something I’ve wanted to share with you for a while…. Well the e-mails (cause it’s happened 3 times now) and I’ve been wanting to tell you my dime story after you said that to E and after finding one at game yesterday.  I guess I sorta needed to now.

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